spasticated

2008-03-13T01:30:00.003+08:00

alrights. its been very long since i have blog ehs.

hmmm many things/stuffs here and there.

firstly.

my secondary school class mate.
woonyong aka ah yong.
he's in hospital because it has been found.
the it is brain tumour.
hello. he is just 18.
and brain tumour.
like "so young lar"
went to visit him on the 7 march.
saw him being like "poke" by the needles.
its like the same feeling as how i saw my dad.

i can understand how his parents felt. & so does his sister.
hurt & pain.

secondly.

examsexamsexams.
took mark lee's theory test today.
score a 20. *phew*
friday with shirli's practical
william's presentation.
and on the 18 with last paper shirli's theory.
i'm so gonna blow up like soon.

but thankfully there is always holidays for us to recover.((:

thirdly.

boyfriend.^^
ahhhh. thanks dou for being there like everytime
whenever i felt like stress or something.
just want to tell you how much iloveyou.
thanks for taking so good care of baby.
bathing it and feeding it.
spending your time infront of the hamster cage.
for hours.
thanks for sunday. even thou was 9 months
but you gave your time to me.
playing basketball with me.
under the rain.
loveyou soo soo much.
playing viwawa with me.
esp daidee. losing to me.
hehes. love you lots dear.

yes i have completed my post ler.
i'll post pictures up soon ok.
love ya people.

2008-03-04T02:44:00.000+08:00

wha ok. this blog is so rotting or dying already lahh

ok i will blog soon ok^^ so stay tune ahh. hahas

2008-02-02T22:27:00.000+08:00

pls vote for my tee shirt design @ http://www.neeteen.sg/tshirt/designdetails.asp?id=56 after voting please go to ur hotmail junk to verify so it would be counted as a vote. thanks (this is not virus)

hahas.new year is coming ler.
and so is my birthday && valentines day
&&& most important is 8months
missing it soo much.
nehneh

please everyone help me to vote for my tee shirt yeah.

2008-01-19T00:02:00.000+08:00

shucks.
i guess i am going to be very duper super uber sick soon
went to the teacher's staff room today
had briefing for the LKY project thingy.
super stress about it.
cause it is a very BIGBIGBIG project.

feel so sick right now
throat very pain.
like there is some kind of ball being stuck inside
den my whole body is aching dunno if it is due to wed training
but i dun think so cause it is aching like i got a fever or so.
but i have to work tomorrow.
and shit ass.
cause my head hurts alot.
shucks

school has been rather stress with me
with classes which are boring but important.
and it is super hard to not go to sch
since every thing i'm learning now is important.
ahhhhhhhhhhh
i just need a break.

doudou has been very good and nice to me.
by waiting for me til the late night because my classes end late
so so so so love him

p/s : something happen on wed. ask me in person.
cause it is FUNNY

2007-12-21T16:23:00.000+08:00

got some blog quiz from pearly's blog^^

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress.

You are very extroverted and outgoing. You are loving, friendly, and supportive. However, you are also manipulative and controlling at times.

You are very detail oriented and meticulous. You are a careful thinker and a true intellectual.

You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well.

You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.

You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.

alrights off to basketball court ^^ WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

2007-11-25T19:10:00.000+08:00

The Most Selfish One-Letter Word:
" I "
Avoid it.

The Most Satisfying Two-Letter Word:
" WE "
Use it.

The Most Poisonous Three-Letter Word:
" EGO "
Kill it.

The Most Used Four-Letter Word:
" LOVE "
Value it.

The Most Pleasing Five Letter Word:
" SMILE "
Keep it.

The Fastest Spreading Six-Letter Word:
" RUMOUR "
Ignore it.

The Hardest Working Seven Letter Word:
" SUCCESS "
Achieve it.

The Most Enviable Eight-Letter Word:
" JEALOUSY "
Distance it.

The Most Powerful Nine-Letter Word:
" KNOWLEDGE "
Acquire it.

The Most Essential Ten-Letter Word:
" CONFIDENCE "
Trust it

Sometimes you cannot believe what you see,
you have to believe what you feel.
And if you are ever going to have other people trust you,
you must feel that you can trust them too,
even when you're in the dark.
Even when you're falling,

2007-11-15T02:50:00.000+08:00

hellos world.

as many people wanted.an ENTRY ehs
hahas.
well. there are sooooo many things going on in sch
yeaps.
assignments coming in and out.
rather busy with stuffs.

ended class at 5.30 today.
bus-ed to amk with weixiong.
&&train-ed to woodlands with weixiong too;
but he left at yishun.

went dinner with quahquah<3
at causeway kfc.
saw raymond d super mario.
had 2 piece chicken crispy
which is d same as quah.
after eating we were super full.
so we went to pasa malam.

&&walk-ed at pasa malam
bought socks && this sesame streets little pouch.
it is supppppperrrr cute can.

yeaps.went over to church.
saw vera mugging hard for A's
(go vera go! jiayou!)

went into one of d G room.
saw weixiang &&noel's daddy rehersing for some play.
very funny lor.

yeaps.walk-ed home with quah.

meeting them for basketball on sat morning @ fushan.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

你微微的笑温暖我的心
让我有了冲劲动力
于是我又鼓起了勇气决定要疯狂爱上你
千千万万的爱意等不及
凉风徐徐的提醒我和你

只欠一句我爱你没胆亲口告诉你
想要照顾你好好疼你
只差一句你答应点头说你也愿意
和我在一起手牵着你紧紧抱着你

盛夏的回忆再偷偷想起
你就是剩下的唯一
我站在这里用最真的心
想对你说请相信我们之间的距离

手牵着你紧紧抱着你

2007-10-05T03:43:00.000+08:00

The Magic of Love
Love is not judgmental,
Love is lending a hand to anyone in need.
Love is not painful,
Love is knowing the sacrifices are well worth it.
Love is not biased,
Love is recognising someone's pain & comforting them.
Love is not difficult,
Love is opening your heart to those who want to give.
Love is not blind,
Love is being able to look in the mirror & know you are someone special.
Love is not complex,
Love is a sincere smile.
Love is not distant,
Love is a heartfelt hug.
Love is the one true gift we have to share witheveryone,

anywhere,
in an unlimited supply.(:

2007-09-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

i'm getting super tired, mentally.
words fall out of my mouth
and i cant seem to trace what i’m saying

i expected much more,but i received so much lesser.
it's demoralising
seriously,i dont even know how to reactit all seem so fake now

-i wish i could find the words to sayi wish i could save these moments
and put 'em in a jar i wish i could stop the world from turning keep things just the way they are

2007-09-07T02:05:00.000+08:00

everything is starting to change.
aiya dunno lah.
thinking of quitting.but it seems that it is in my blood.
hmmm.
arg.hate this feeling.
maybe i shall stop hanging out with them,
since i am not even enjoying myself.
if friendships starts to end here.
i will end it here.
i'm sorry.

2007-08-20T03:52:00.000+08:00

DON'T KNOW

Suddenly, I don't like myslef. Not know what happen to myself.
So low that can't be measured. Think suffering from depression.

DON'T KNOW WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT !

2007-07-22T01:18:00.000+08:00

ahhhh.long time never blog liaos.

waiting for my dear boy to call me.
miss his voice.(((:

DEAR WHERE ARE YOU!!
I WANNA HEAR YOUR VOICE NOW!!

ahhhh.
ok.he call liaos.

ciaos.<33 ya ppl.

2007-07-10T08:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday was one month with dear.
and also the end of my holiday ler.
wha my timetable also quite screwed up lor.
but good lah.cause friday i off-day.(x
but monday to wednesday my class start at 8.
so hor.have to wake up early norhs.

hehs.yesterday went to watch transformer with dear.
the movie is worth watching norhs.
at the cathay.den walk pass billy bombers.
saw a few people on duty lor.((x

now in class.learning photoshop.
ok lah.when i got time to blog i will blog again bahs.
goodbye people.

2007-06-20T18:38:00.000+08:00

Rest In Peace.
Kyle David Miller.
Age 3.
Died in car crash.
take care my dear boy.

2007-06-18T01:06:00.000+08:00

heyhey people.

first of all.
yea got hired at billy bombers at The Cathay.
will be working with bekah&grace&vonne.
thanks to grace.if not we will not get the job norhs.
will be starting work on thursday afternoon.(((:

after the interview hor.
went to find dear&melvin at tampines.
cause there got dance festival ma.
den go there support ppl.(((:

went to arcade first.
see dear play nba game.
i see him play very funny lor.
after that dear&melvin play d taytona.
hahas.saw this little boy play.
very the cute norhs.
i see ler also can laugh norhs.
den after that dear&melvin play tgt with 2 little xiaodidi
hahas.dear the car spoilt d.
den he abit nt happy. xp
but nvm lah.
went to the food court norhs.
nvr eat cause nt hungry.
hehes.
den melvin the food got hair.(uncle's hair i think)
after eat ler den go home ler.

dear send me home den slack under one block.hehes.
talk to dear norhs.
miss him alot norhs.and i also love him too.

ijustwannabeyours,andyoursonly.

2007-06-13T23:13:00.000+08:00

ytd garry's training to me rather slack ler.
cause can say during normal training also got do ma.
after training went to cwp for dinner
had kfc.ate the miso chicken.
went there with
quah,val&keith.
den quah left first cause she need to be home early ma
after that i walked val to 834 to find her mum
pei her talk talk while she wait for her mum to go home.
den walk aunty janet&val until their block den i go home.

den today.
got morning call from vonne cause i scared i cannot wake up.
den she call liao den i go back to sleep until 12.
cause tired. x))
den get ready and everything
den go meet bekah.to go clarke quay for interview.
meet vonne there.
had long john for lunch.
den walk walk den find the place lor.
the pump room.
the pump room and hensiada is like the same lor.
very cool lor.
den we do the appilcation form lor.
now waiting for the person to call nia.

after that i had to chiong back to bishan for training

but before that i share ice cream with vonne.

hahas

i choose red cherry den vonne choose the hei zi ma hu.

den bekah keep saying vonne eat cement lah.

hahas.

but really very nice lah.the icecream.

went for training.

was late.but still kinda happy lah

cause hor.got one drill is have to shoot 3 point d ma.

den hor dunno why and for the first time lah

i shoot 3 point chop go in.

den not only 1 ball hor.

is 3 ball hor.missed 2 shots.

but

i can say i very happy ler lor.

hahas. x))

after training went to meet dear.

but i was late.sorry dear.

den have mac for dinner.

den see babies around me.

ALL SO CUTE CAN?!

*someone jealous ler hor*

but den he still cutest lah.

den he send me home. x))

tmr going to yishun to play basketball(:

the ice cream&&bekah's face

pretty ladies

nearer view(((:

bekah<3

vain. x)))

2007-06-12T14:27:00.000+08:00

ytd went to town with my dear.
went cine to watch men in white.
the show arh.
can say funny is funny lah
but den hor.
waste of money cause the duration too short
that is whad me and dear tot lah.
but den enjoy my day with dear lor.
(((:

going for training later at the new court.
training start at 6.
think i'm going early to warm up
and practice more on my shooting
have to gain more confidence in myself ler
was conferncing on the phone last night
chatted until rather late arhs.
hahas.(((:

okie.housework time.((X
misses

2007-06-11T02:11:00.000+08:00

woke up 12 plus today.
den went to prepare myself for the floor ball match.
have to wear red shirt cause my team color ma.
each team must have 5 ppl.
den mostly each team got 2 girls.
den my team got only 1 girl which is me lah
den the other 4 members are
sebas,andy,syafiq&zul
den in every match must have at least 1 girl from each team
so i all round also got play. x))

den during the first round
lost 1 ; draw 1 ; won 1
den during the second round
lost 2 ; won 1

but got into the final
played against the FACES.
they played very well.
but den won them 3:1 or 2:1
cannot remember *paiseh arhs*

but during round 2 sort of hurt myself
cause during the game someone bang me
den i hit against the wall.
but never mind lah
got champion can ler hor.

salibenny all the way ((((:

2007-06-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

ok ok.
i am trying not to cheem up my post liaos.

well went to work today with bekah.
had prata for breakfast.
CHEESE PRATA(((:

left for harbour front den off to sentosa
was station with bekah at d kachang puteh stall.
hahas.
rather fun there cause most of d time was slacking away.
but until d dj there promoted the stall like
38462947590371934583242 times.
den many many many people came.
but seriously the kids there SUPER CUTE can?!
but my day was like super tired lah.
really lah.woke up 5.30AM norhs.
first time ehs.but actually i sleep at 3 liddat den wake up at 5.30
never really sleep lah.light nap lah.
so ya lor.thats why can wake up at 5.30 norhs.

d stupid weather today very the hot lah.
den when we pack up liaos.den sit d van.
wha kaos.really lor.
7 very hot and sweaty ppl inside the van with all d things.
wha i tell you hot.really lahhh.can burn up all the fats man
like inside suana lah.

den once we reach vivo ler hor.wha seh.
super cooling norhs.
den bekah & me at vivo walk walk.
den go find april at carl's jr.
den wanted to buy drink den april give us free d
BIGBIG cup lor.
den i fastforward *
go to d newurbanmale shop.
wha.i saw a GREEEEEEEEEEEEEN bag.
but hor it cost like $129.90 norh.
wha.faster go work earn d money go buy that
GREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN bag.really norhs.den
also wanna buy d basketball shirt & d slippers lor.
but first is must find work den got money den can buy liaos.

muahahas.

I LOVE MY PANDA CANS?!

2007-06-08T01:25:00.000+08:00

L, is for the way you look at me,
O, is for the only one i see,
V, is very very, extraodinary,
E, is even more than anyone that you adore...

come on everybody
sing it with me.

argggggg!
i'm so in LOVE right now ((((((((:

2007-06-06T23:25:00.000+08:00

Getting There

Recently, what ever I said, might be unusual. that was not what I'm in the past. Not very sure or it's because of that?

Getting there but sudden feel to to get back again or simply retrieve.
Where to move?

Standing in circle.

2007-06-06T02:13:00.000+08:00

In the light of the sun
Is there anyone, ohh it has begun
O dear you look so lost
Eyes are red and tears are shed this world you must have crossed you said
You don’t know me, and you don't even care
ooo yea
You said you don't know me, and you don't wear my chains ooo yea

Essential yet appealed
Carry all your thoughts, across an open field
When the flowers gaze at you they're not the only ones who cry when they see you
You said you don't know me, and you don’t even care ooo yea
Well you said you don't know me, and you don't wear my chains
ooo yea

She said I think I'm going to Boston
I think I'll start a new life
I think I'll start it over
No one knows my name
I'll get out of California
I'm tired of the weather
I think I'll get a lover
I'll fly them out to Spain

I think I'll go to Boston
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town to leave this all behind
I think I need a sun rise
I'm tired of the sun set
Here it's nice in the summer
Some snow would be nice
Ooo yea

You don't know me
And you don't even care
Ooo yea

In Boston!
No one knows my name
No one knows my name
No one knows my name

Yeaa

In Boston no one knows my name

女：你是会在雨中撑把雨伞来保护我的男人或是会在雨中陪我一起淋雨的男人？

男： 陪你一起淋雨，当然。你呢？

女：我会陪你一起淋雨，陪你一起度过所有困难 。。。

2007-06-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

I AM MAD!

I know I didn't blog for a long. Sudden intention to blog. I felt high. I began to like myself or even love myself. So high than I don't bother to care anythings around me. By the way, who cares any way. Since no one bother, no points to care. So be a free man, wander around. Really feel high. No reason for that. I love myself and the people around that experience of what I felt in past.No worry if you don't understand.

Just Know That I'm HIGH !

2007-06-02T23:23:00.001+08:00

Someone mention to me, saying
"Music take us away from the Reality, to the Music's Reality."
And this is a good way for me to escape from the current Reality I'm facing with. Reality troubles me whenever I entered a place called Home. As people say,
"Home Sweet Home",
but this Home doesn't seems to be sweet at all. In fact, it contains more Bitter and Sour rather than Sweet. Not only that, maybe anger and hardship. Maybe this is what the Sweetness contains. So is life already planned somewhere than we normal human don't know?
Maybe there's such things happening in another space.Only that we couldn't know, and maybe they serves as a purpose.But now the Reality is totally messy, did someone mess up with the plan?Or is the plan supposed to be messed up?Now life isn't as good as before. I may seems happy outside.Because I'm trying to enjoy myself before I couldn't

As said previously, Music bring us away from the Reality.And the true reality only come back after we finished with a certain Music.And I need a Music that is able to freeze me, maybe a very long Music is needed for me.I don't want to face the Reality, I only face it when bad times pass and good times come.

But when will it come? 3 years? 5 years? or even 10 years? 20 years?I really wish I can escape from the current Reality that in facing with.Why? Because it's not nice to face it!

2007-04-07T01:34:00.000+08:00

Brain is such an amazing organ,
something that controls your thoughts and emotions.
something that not any Java codes that can simulate.
Our brains is such an unique thing,
that somewhat differentiates me from you.
As all our our brains are coded differently,
a missing semi-colon can pretty much screw your life.

But then again, life's not all about if-then-else,
for we humans live in a world that's more than 1s and 0s.
The fact that humans are co-existing,
it only makes life more interesting.
Compromise and tolerance is the way to go,
Assumptions and selfishness is a big no-no.
Interactions between people is such an art,
to make different perceptions and beliefs coincide.

It's also amazing, how news reports show the ugly side of human.
Countries fighting to be one of the "Superpowers",
Big woo-ha about bombing satellites and nuclear sites.
And the best of all,
Doctors and nurses running away for their lives,
leaving patients holding onto their drips and stagger away.
I would really like to ask them,
"What do you really want?"
Being the top, most powerful and deadliest country?
Taking lives as and when you feel like calling for war?
Or treating your life more important than someone else's?
"Is that what you really want to achieve?"
Wonder how you sleep in peace,
thinking that you're the happiest person on earth.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

No matter how greedy we are,
Humans still have a limited life span.
It could be fifty years later, or even five seconds from now,
It's a fact that we all will die anyway.
This is how we are scheduled, we have our turn.
So no point "jumping queue".
We were made to go through life,
not an easy thing of course,
for things are happening in cycles of ups and downs,
until the Sine wave recedes to y = 0.
We do have a choice, to live happily or to die miserably.
Regardless at which point of curve I'm now at,
I will choose the former one.

Thinking about my own future,
I thought I can do anything that I want.
Sadly, not anymore when,
I'm reminded of the skeleton in the closet.
Indeed, life's not all just about me and myself after all.

Feeling squashed, feeling heavy.. all will be over soon, very soon.

2007-03-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

Never Assume.
It just make an ASS out of U and ME

Initiative. Do you have that or do you even understand what's that? Maybe you've got all the time in the world to find out.

Listen with your heart. Or is your mouth or head that big that you've forgetten that you are given 2 ears?

Be in one's shoe. Do you even try to relate how one's really feeling and not sayin "If I were you...?"

2007-03-04T20:32:00.000+08:00

in life you can always choose the way you want to live.

either
happy or sad;
rich or poor;
strong or weak;
loved or unloved;
brave or timid;

and the list go on and on, and so do life.
you can love it or hate it.
it is your choice of living.

well i know this is sort of long but i still wanna post it.
i wanna thank the people who
remembered my birthday.
and i wanna thank the people for
the presents ; the sms(s) ; the cards ; and ect lah

thanks to EVERYONE who remembered okay.
love you people lots.

2007-03-03T03:28:00.000+08:00

Life is like a taxi.
The meter just keeps ticking whether you are getting somewhere or just standing still!
So…
remember to do something useful and beneficial everyday!

2007-02-25T00:33:00.000+08:00

Heard elsewhere, that we lose some brain cells day by day, more if lack of sleep. What's more the lost cells aren't coming back to you. For just the past 2 months, I guess I've lost roughly 3 or 4 times more than usual people, soon enough I'll turn into a brainless idiot for any of you all to bully.

Been abusing my body, abusing everything that's around me; friends and family. Why are they still so kind? I'll get over it. Just that things somehow doesn't seem right. I'm Sorry.

It has been quite a while since I got that fuzzy warming feeling when I step into the room, despite of work and upcoming deadlines. Like someone mentioned, that should be a place where people just sit down chit-chat, and a chance to get to know seldom-seen-before people. How dramatic.

Is it time for me to step back in the comfort zone? Enough of socializing and sick of being "high-profile". I'm still an introvert, ok? Too much for me to take? Seems like older we grow, life's getting harder and harder.

I want to be that quiet (little) girl who listens to her friends' stories, just as before.
It may be ironic, as this post seems like a part 2 of the "negative post", I'm actually feeling happy now. Time to catch some sleep...

2007-02-21T00:10:00.000+08:00

Friends before self. Friends are there to help each other. Friends help each other to grow. We come from different background and had experiences from different situations. Help open up one's life with your experience and learn to live life to the fullest by appreciating what you have.

When my friends are happy, I'm happy for them. When I'm happy but friends are not, I will not be happy. When I'm sad and if my friends know that I'm sad, I'm happy. When I do well, I am happy. When my friends do even better than me, I'm even happier, for myself and for them. In life, friends are the one who makes it colourful.

Primary school friends, known since young, playmates, did childish things, been through carefree life together. Earned Most-Trusted Friends. They are the ones who are and will be with me always, even if the sky starts to fall. Thanks GuiSiang. and Siti. especially.

Secondary school friends. A time when every one's characters moulding, becoming who you really are. Great changes, physically, mentally and emotionally. A time when friends would been through changes with you and accept you as a friend, as for who you are. Things we did, nevertheless, a little less-stupid, but fun. Secondary school friends are the ones whom you should remember the most. Close friends, best friends, whatever heart-to-heart bonding friendships are forged, even when there's no verbal acknowledement.

ITE Friends, for me, up to now still quite vague, partially I haven't completed even half of my ITE education. The nice feelings from secondary and primary school can never be found. As our character matures, it takes some time for someone else to fully accept another one as friend, as these people did not grow together with you. They don't know how you usually talk, why you behave this way and what's going up in your mind. It takes more time for the person to know you better as a friend. For me, I guess I haven't found a real close friend, though I've made a number of GOOD friends who give me the support when I needed the most. Perhaps the friend I've made "closest" to the feeling I've got in secondary school is the Lim(s) I'm glad that I know you.

Something sad I feel sometimes when I'm with these friends. (Pri, Sec, ITE). What I want is my presence to be felt, and not when I disappear into thin air (to them, literally) and no one notices till they needed me. Does it mean that if I'm not needed, there's no need for me to be there? And feelings are seldom mutual. I thought that I might be very close to that friend, but that friend might not think that, or worse, take me for granted. Or that another person thinks that I can be very good friend with him/her, but maybe sometimes I just didn't notice you somehow.

2007-02-19T16:17:00.000+08:00

This post should be interesting. Recently I was nicknamed as "CNN" broadcaster. People around me should know by know, I'm really very very kaypoh. "CNN" means news, means not fake or gossips. And I guess "broadcaster" means I share news with people.

Why am I doing this?
Right from my heart, I say is I'm concerned about my friends. You may argue that being concern is just an excuse or being kaypoh doesn't show that I'm concerned. If you think so, then too bad for looking at me this so shallowly.

Because you're my friend.
Shared grive is halved. Shared happiness is doubled.
My friends' problem becomes MY problem. My friends' joy is MY joy.
You are my friend. It's because I care then I ask. I wanna know more about you. If you're a stranger, I couldn't be bothered about you even if you have tonnes of scandles or troubles. This kinda sharing sessions actually build the bonds between me and my friends. (Yea, that kinda feeling I don't know how to describe)

I'm a listener. I can give advice.
Though I maybe going around bugging you for latest updates, I'm still a listener. I've realise these days there ain't many listeners around. We are given TWO ears to listen, but seems like people are just using their ONE mouth to speak more. After being a listener for the past 4 years, I've accumulated various experiences from people. From the third-person's point of view, things are clearer and less complicated. After much analysising and based on past experiences, often i can come out with a win-win solution or even give my friends enlightenment. Even if you are having difficulty expressing yourself, just say whatever is in your mind, speak in broken sentences or words, I may make out what you tryin to say. When talking to my friends, I find that most are not open enough to share their worries. Some even prefer to keep it to themselves, not knowin bottling these up is extremely harmful. This leads to TRUST.

Am I trustworthy?
Some of you may think that since I'm a "broadcaster", I must be untrustworthy. Perhaps you have place your trust in the wrong person before that you would wanna trust anyone so easily. Or perhaps you didn't even try to trust people. I know what I am doing, I consider all conseqeunces for my actions. Obviously I am not a direct loud-hailer. Things that I can say I may say. Things I know I should not or being told not to, I will not broadcast it. Sometimes knowing too much isnt a good thing at all. (Ignorance is bliss). Then again, as I treat you as my friend, I wanna help. I've learnt that at times its better for me to wash my hands off certain issues, but most of the times, after sharing, I can at least confort my friends, make them feel better and at least there's someone who listens. Just by providing a listening ear sometimes is just sufficient, though I need to ask around to offer such "service" of mine. =p

Ultimately the choice is yours. My ears are open. I'm more glad to help, and will be happy if you would think of approaching me as a friend for help. Don't worry, though the cases I mentioned seem like all problematic (like need conforting, tryin to solve, etc etc..), you can come to me for good news that you would like to spread to the world =p Though most of the times that something "good"/"sweet" you don't want me to broadcast so openly, it just takes a few days for such "good"/"sweet" news to spread by itself. =D

PS: Sorry if I didn't approach any one of you for "updates". When I sense something's fishy, I'll bug you =p

2007-02-18T00:31:00.000+08:00

Personality Test

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2007-02-15T17:20:00.000+08:00

Our dear old BERYL is a positive person, whom think Optimistically most of the time, where she believes that things are sure to get better somehow. She is blessed with what she has got now. Friends, Family, Health, etc. She tries hard, very hard to not take any of them for granted. It is tiring, but she still lives on. But I still fail...

Nothing is perfect, because things can be better. It is up to you to prove that you can make things better. But I still fail...

There's always difficult people around. This word "difficult" is subjective and relative. Someone might be difficult to you but not to another person. Someone can be difficult but others may feel that it is not that bad. Whatever the case is, one thing for sure is we've gotta live with it. No point cursing and swearing. Working with people... is such an art. But I still fail...

Human are born to be selfish and greedy in someway or in another. That's when Human makes mistakes, and where Human learns. Things seem to happening at the scope of an individual. Maybe it it is true that ultimately we work for ourselves, with the mentality "it is none of my business if you die." Has BERYL's image of teamwork shattered, like how her heart did? But I still fail...

With teamwork, someone known as "a leader" comes into the picture. There's so many qualities that an ideal leader is expected of. So many that, to me, it is almost impossible for such person to exist. That's where BERYL learns that there can exist many "versions" of leaders. Some leaders can be in "alpha or beta or even released version", or some leaders "only compatible with certain Operating Systems". Someone without charisma, without the power of influence... But I still fail...

In life, such superficial and materialistic life, somewhat everything revolves around money, around power, around yourself. Whether you're a leader or not, whether you're a team-player or not and whether you're rich or not, if you're not happy, truly happy, you're not successful. Who knows, in the future, the so-call "true friends" can turn your back on you, (could even be BERYL) because of money. This is an uncertain fact, where only time can tell. Who knows, in the future, only money is THE important thing, that keeps you working and living, because you know "no work = no money = die". Or if happens that you've become rich, nothing in the world matters just because you have money, you can be might as well dead. Something is missing. Something important, seemed insignificant is missing. Something BERYL used to believe, is gone. But I still fail...

Before this paragraphs get any longer than the previous paragraphs like the rest did, I want to end this grandmother story. BERYL will never stop trying, But I still fail... I will still keep trying.

HAPPY RAINING BIRTHDAY BERYL!!!!

2007-02-05T21:39:00.000+08:00

18 years have come and gone
For momma they flew by
But for me they just drug on
We were loading up that Chevy
Both tryin not to cry
Momma kept on talking
Putting off good-bye
Then she took my hand and said
Baby dont forget

Before you hit the highway
You better stop for gas
Theres a 50 in ashtray
In case you run short on cash
Heres a map and heres a bible
If you ever loose your way
Just one more thing before you leave
Dont forget to remember me

This downtown apartment
Sure makes me miss home
And those bills there on the counter
And tell me Im on my own
And just like every Sunday
I called momma up last night
And even when its not
I tell her everythings alright
Before we hung up I said

Hey momma， dont forget
To tell my baby sister
Ill see her in the fall
And tell mee-mal that I miss her
Yeah，I should give her a call
And make sure you tell Daddy
That Im still his little girl
Yeah, I still feel like Im
Where Im supposed to be
Dont forget to remember me

Tonight I find myself kneeling
By the bed to pray
I havent done this in a while
So I dont know what to say
But lord I feel so small some times
In this big ol place
Yeah，I know there are more important things
But dont forget to remember me
Dont forget to remember me

2007-02-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?

When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over

2007-01-30T22:18:00.000+08:00

... and here's more
When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions
May wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams
As the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you
So shall he crucify you.
Even as he is for your growth
So is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses
Your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and
Shake them in their clinging to the earth.

The Prophet by Gibran Kahlil Gibran

2007-01-28T21:34:00.000+08:00

I hate when you say
That I don't blow you away
I can't break through that way
Our friends told us
We wouldn't last for the week
Cos' they think that I'm a freak
They hated my blue streak
I can't control this

Why does it feel like it's raining in my head
I don't understand
Why are you always complaining about me
You don't even know who I am

Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't send a sorry card
Cos' I don't need you
I'm giving up on never ending this
I'll find a way of getting over this
I'll let go in every way
Cos' I don't need you

I feel that it's time for me
To draw the line
I know that I'll be fine
Without your bitching
Cos' everyday I become
A little less numb
Like I don't even know you

Why does it feel like it's raining in my head
I don't understand
Why are you always complaining about me
You don't even know who I am

Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I ^won't _send a sorry card
Cos' I don't need you
I'm giving up on never ending this
I'll find a way of getting over this
I'll let go in every way
Cos' I don't need you

Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't send a sorry card
Cos' I don't need to
I'm giving up on never ending this
I'll find a way of getting over this
I let go in every way
Cos' I don't need you
Cos' I don't need you

Don't think I wanna know
I gotta go
Before I go crazy
I let go in every way
Cos' anyway
I know that you hate me

Don't think I wanna know
I gotta go
Before I go crazy
I let go in every way
Cos' anyway
I know that you hate me

Don't think I wanna know
I gotta go
Before I go crazy
I let go in every way
Cos' anyway
I know that you hate me

2007-01-26T19:18:00.000+08:00

okay i am so traumatized.

i was walking home just now and a cat just died infront of me.
cause of this car.
the car just ramped over the cats head.
and its right eye ball pop-ed out
and the cat was flipping about in pain,.
i am traumatized.
seriously.
i wanted to go up to the car to tell that driver
but i was too traumatized by it.
so i stood there for 5-10 mins.
i was trying not to think about it.
and the driver drove off.
i didnt know whad to do.
so i called sha my cousin (tanisha)
and i told her about it.it is real freaky.

this is a note to all anti-animal people(people who hates animals)

animals have a life too.
do not i mean do not
try to hurt an animal
because you yourself can get into
trouble. why dont you try loving an animal.

SPCA: a place where you can find many pets.and you will love them; i dunno if you love them.but it sure shows you something.

why dont you start loving it now?

L : let yourself be reminded of how God has been good to you and love them(including animal) with the same love!
O : offer to serve(feeding an animal) and help!
V : value others(including an animal) more than yourself!
E : encourage each other practically!
this is how you should love someone and an animal !

2007-01-25T22:45:00.000+08:00

hellos people.i'm here to blog again

i have finally realize something.
during secondary school life.i always feel like
ponning (skip) school for some stupid reason.
so i would die die 101% will want to get a day free.
and i would not care if the subject is
any important to me.
and i would skip class by staying in the sick bay.
but mostly i didnt do it.cause
there is always my mom to lecture me.

but for the ever first time.
i miss school this year,
and i did felt bad; i really mean it.
i was sick on monday and i had to miss school.
ya.and i just dont feel good.
cause this time i know that my
moldues are very important to me.
i mean VERY.
cause this will affect my GPA(s)
and i def would not wanna retake the year again.
it is really good and i really wanna
thank God for whad He has done to me.
now i just feel like i have grown.
seriously.i am lso proud at myself too.
for some reasons.ahas.=]]

GROW BERYL GROW!
waiting for youuuu! lols

2007-01-19T18:24:00.000+08:00

well.time to blog

actually.i'm lazy to blog.hehe.

well.sch is okay la.
i have seen and know people.
who either look like my secondary sch friend or
they will know people i have known.

well.
ok la.starting to learn how to like love sch more
since it much harder for me.
well.i just dont have the mood to blog.dont know hy

anyway.too many people got injured due to a game of basketball.
tsk tsk

2007-01-13T00:09:00.000+08:00

DANGGG

man.sch sucks.
tired of getting super early,
just to get ready for sch
sitting an hour of car ride
that makes me like crazy.
hate it.really hate it.
having stupid traffic jams.
cars hitting on each other.
having cars that have their car break
JAMMED
darn.
i just feel like
i'm getting to my old ways again.
i'm trying not to.
totally crapness.

ROARR!

ya.wasted my day
in school today.
which made my mood
BAD.REAL BAD.
didnt really want to do stuff.
half of the class wasnt there.
even my buddy alica wasnt there.
crapness.
well.at least i chao d programme.
rather dumb.okay i cant say dumb la.

GRRRR.!!!

just dont know why i wasnt in the mood today.
even me myself dont know whads wrong with me.
hate this feeling.it sucks.

SORRY FOR MY RANDOM-NESS BLOG POSTING.
JUST BEING A TYPICAL BERYL THOU.

2007-01-10T22:17:00.000+08:00

ROARRR!!!

2007-01-07T02:32:00.000+08:00

my soul just died.
living without a soul.

2006-12-28T02:44:00.000+08:00

When I was young, I used to love reading fairy tales.
Why?
Because they always have this beautiful princess and this handsome prince.
No matter what difficulties they encounter, they will always end up being together again in a
" and they lived happily ever after..."
I always aspired to be the princess in the fairy tales.
She always marries the handsome prince and end up happily ever after.
I wanted to live my life happily and married to a handsome hunk then.
Well, it still is now.
However, dring the years, I mature and grow.
I grew out of my childish thoughts and became more mature.
Looking back now, it is really funny to see how silly I was then to believe in fairy tales.
Life can never be a fairy tale. Life will never ever have a happy ending.
I don't know why, don't ask me.
I must say, since life is never a happy ending, why do people still try so hard to search for their "happily ever after"?
Since life is never a happy ending, why do people still is so ambitious, still trying to fulfill their dreams of finding a wonderful life, being rich, blah, blah, blah , ect.
Sigh, I don't know why.
I guess we just are very ambitious and want to learn about everything.
I think that it is great!
We should continue to learn to even we are old and wrinkly.
Hereby, I end this entry with a saying.

"When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, I used everything you gave me."

- Erma Louise Bombeck -

2006-12-23T00:17:00.000+08:00

hey people(s)

hellos.okay.i'm like so happy this week cans?!
ahas.well got a few christmas presents le.
got this Juniper Breeze moisturizing hand soap from Bath & Body Works
a Brilliant Banana Bath Bubbles from The Body Shop
a towel from Royal Cotton Field
and a book on Straight Talk on Worry by Joyce Meyer

yeaps.and another thing is like.
i passed my N lvl.ahas.well.
passed all my subject.even my worst and fearful chinese.
ahas.and my super horrible maths.
well.its God's grace yarhs.
yeaps.and i had applyed for my courses at ite.
ok.i'm not going to any ite that my friends are going
i'm going for the sake of the course i'm choosing.
not because of friends but because i want to.
so whad if they are my friends.
i wanna get into whad i want
and whad i'm interested in.

okay.this week i'm like staying up late to do stuffs.
like ahas. writing cards.
the rain is so irritating.grrrr.
tmr going out with sarah girl.and elynn pang yu ling.
ahas.i think she will scream at me for posting her full name out.
kaka~

yeaps.well.getting baptise this coming christmas eve.ahas.
how cool right.lol.tgt with eujin,mingjie,joy&jarrell di
yeaps.

during this seasoni kinda get to know andrina more.and oh ya.
kinda talk things out with val too.better lerhs.ahas.
nothing much happen. ^^

anyway i think i gotta go soon yarhs.
take care everyone.
love ya lots

2006-12-15T20:19:00.000+08:00

Title: KumaU cinta Yesus .
Title: I Will Love You Jesus.

malay translation

KumaU cinta Yesus selamanya
KumaU cinta Yesus selamanya
Meskipun bagai selih bergandi dalam hidupku
Ku tetap cinta Yesus selamanya

Ya Abba Bapa ini aku anak
Mu Layyankanlah seluru hidupku
Ya Abba Bapa ini aku anak
Mu Pakailah sesuai dengan rencanamu

english translation

I will love You Jesus forevermore
I will love You Jesus forevermore
No matter what storms may come,You'll be in my heart
I will love You Jesus forevermore

You're my Father , here is Your child I will keep
You firm in my heart
You're my Father , here is Your child
Fit me in your plans as a glove fits the hand

2006-12-15T12:16:00.000+08:00

WELCOME TO TELUNAS

2006-12-08T23:32:00.000+08:00

aw man.youth camp is over.
well.i was in a team called Philologus.
philologus means lover of the word.
something to thank God for during youth camp
i thank God for touching me during Omega Night
i poured out all my

anger
darkness

fears

saddness

sufferings

troubles

that happen to me during the year of 2006 and i really do not really wanna keep them in me.cause for i know it hurt me deep.so many problems.just hoping that 2007 will be a better year den 2006.

well.my results are coming out in a few more days.aw man.i hate this feeling.grrrr.i am hoping to get into simei and get the course i wanna get in.but now the trouble is that i dont kow if i should go for the one i am interested in or i am stronger in? it is a really hard choice.and i wanna make the right choice too. XP .dang i'm sure to get post camp sydrome.

shuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkksssssssssss.

Jesus,
Beautiful Saviour,
God of all Majesty,
Risen king,
Lamb of God,
Holy and righteous,
Blessed redeemer,
Bright morning star .

All the heavens shout your praise,
All creation bow to worship You .

How wonderful,
how beautiful,
Name above every name,
exalted high .
How wonderful,
how beautiful,
Jesus your name,
name above every name, Jesus .

I will sing forever,
Jesus I love you,
Jesus I love you .

2006-12-03T20:05:00.000+08:00

no one really knows me well.
what can i say.
i never been so angry before.
i just dont know whad i am right now.
a ~~human , a hero , a normal person or a~~ monster.
yes.maybe a monster.
a monster that hide things from people.
no one knows.
broken hope.
broken dreams.
broken love.
everything is just broken to me.
whad is really wrong.
i just dont understand.

youthcamp is tomorrow.
i dont know how i will be like.
i hope that everything would be fine.

i am tired of trying to find my own identity.
identify me.

2006-12-02T18:45:00.000+08:00

Have anyone knows what True means?
How True are u?
How decieving can yourselves be?

I dont know.
Think about it.

2006-11-28T20:42:00.000+08:00

hoho~

hmm.just changed my desktop d wallpaper.

that is the old desktop wallpaper.

and this is my new desktop wallpaper.
all from naruto.really nice luh.
nice right.hehes.

naruto rocks la.really rocks la.

2006-11-26T22:23:00.000+08:00

well.powerkids camp is over.
i'm tired.
really tired.
so tired that i cried til my eyes went dry,
whats wrong with me.
am i back to the past again?

just so tired.
leave me alone.

2006-11-21T02:22:00.000+08:00

{EDITED]}

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."

Rebecca - age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."

Billy -age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."

Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."

Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."

Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."

Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more.My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss"

Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."

Bobby - age 7

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."

Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."

Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore,"

Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."

Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."

Elaine - age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is more handsome than Robert Redford."

Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."

Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."

Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."

Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."

Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget,"

Jessica - age 8

"Love is when papa passes me food when he thinks i have less den him. I could cry when i eat the food".

Sarah- age 13

kids get contented easly :) but it's just so pure love (la)

so silly, but yet so sweet :P

2006-11-13T00:59:00.000+08:00

keke~

well.i had a good time is cg today bahs.had jamming at yishun.ivan brought us there.
fun worhs.waiting for elynn to be online or justin.i want the cg picture.hehes~
i just wanna thank God for guilding the cg and helping us to bring us together as we work together as one.
i really have a wonderful time.
ahas.mummy just had a hair cut.she wants to dye her hair again.
and she ask me if i would wanna dye hair together with her.
thinking of a colour.
at first i wanted ash green.now i think copper brown will be nicer right.
ahas.
kinda fun having mummy so "on and steady" for the first time.
but it's not the first time lerhs.
ahas.
it's just that i cant dye hair when i'm in school right. ahas.
i'm still thinking if i should pei mummy dye hair marhs.
ahas.
can some people give some comments.ahas.
abit hard to think about it lehs.
just 42 more days.
can change phone lerhs.ahas.
i really want a new phone.
how can i live with the phone i'm using now.
so lousy la.ahas.okay i cant complaint much okay.
everyone around me is tempting me to a new phone.
arg!
hate this feeling.shucks.

xp

2006-11-11T00:47:00.000+08:00

I am going to talk about personality today.
Personality is a strange word. It has a different defination to every single person.
There is no ambiguous personalities. That is what make 'personality' unique.
For some, personality may mean hot-tempered and kind-hearted.
While for others, it may mean stingy and cheerful.
You see, it is all different!
Let me give you an example.
You give Mr A and Mrs B the same script and let to direct separately.
The results will be totally different.
Mr A's play may be a cheerful and light play.
However, on the other hand, Mrs B's play may be morbid and heavy.
If you ask me which I prefer, I would say I prefer the latter for my taste is in the dark and heavy department. =)
See, it all boils down to different personalities.
In another scenario, when there is a fire, Mr A may run around screaming and shouting
"HELP! THERE IS A FIRE!"
while Mrs B would sit there and say
"CALL THE FIRE STATION STUPID!".
So, what is the point I am trying to bring forth? People have different personalities.
It is almost impossible to have everyone clicking. It will be a miracle if everyone in the world is friends. If your personalities do not click, why become enemies?
Instead, just be neutral to each other and just utter a polite 'hi', 'thank you' and 'goodbye' to one another.By doing this, you not only have one enemy less and instead, you may even gain a new friend!
Sigh, if everyone in the world understands, there would be no wars in the world.

What a loss... ...

2006-11-10T13:29:00.000+08:00

Hello, good morning, how You do?
What makes Your risin' sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is a way, that I say I need You
This is a way
This is a way

That I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how You been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never, never thought that
I would fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
These abundant skies
Yeah, abundant skies, yeah

This is a way that I say I need You
This is a way that I say I love You
This is a way that I say I'm Yours
This is a is a way

That I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl(Learning to breathe)
I'm finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive(Living again, awake and alive)
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies(I'm dyin')
Yes I'm dying to breathe in(I'm dyin')
These abundant skies
These abundant skies,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I'm learning to breathe
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how You do?
How You do?
How You do? (I'm dyin')

2006-11-09T00:27:00.000+08:00

Everyone wants to be a superhero.
They want to have the power to be able to help and save someone.
Fall in love with a handsome or pretty person and become admired by everyone in the world.
Now, is that true?
Should we snap out of those fantasies and live in the harsh reality or should we continue dreaming and when the bubble burst, it will hurt.
The uncle of Spiderman once said: "With great power comes great responsibility."
I like this phrase. When you have a lot of power, you should not abuse it.
You should, instead, use it wisely to everyone's benefit.
After all, everyone likes a win-win situation.
I am sure no one would like a win-lose situation or even a lose-lose situation.

2006-11-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

daddy and mummy bought
cheee cake and poh-piah for me.
yeahs.happy happy

46 more days~ hohoho!!!

2006-11-06T17:36:00.000+08:00

alright people. before i start posting i have to do a quiz
which i was tagged by my dearest huiling meii

Name out 20 of how you wan your idea LOVER to be like.
Then, name out 10 people from your opposite sex whom you know.
note : specified gender
Afterwhich, tagged at LEAST 1o pple to do it.
Enjoy.

----- MALE-----

o1. love me for who i am.
o2. christian.
o3. not yonger then me.
o4. my perfect half.
o5. trusting in me.
o6. being faithful.
o7. able to make me happy.
o8-2o . no more lerhs.

1o male :
p/s: random order.
o1. david lim (my dad)
o2. daryl lim (my brother)
o3. raphael lim (my nephew)
o4. justin mui (my cg leader)
o5. jarrell ng (my fav gan di)
o6. linus ang (my fav gan kor)
o7. elliot tan (my ex cg member)
o8. daniel tai (my movie partner)
o9. john tan (my laopa)
1o. ayrton sim (my cousin)

1o people to tag :
if you are bored, just do it larhs.anyone also can do.

well.back to blogging.
i think i'm going to have a bad sore throat.
and i am starting to sound very sore too.
dang!
had open sunday yesterday,
got burned on my arms.
ahas.
i want to get more tann.
anyway.i bought new shoe yesterday too.
so happy.been waiting for a new shoe for a long while.
thursday gonna meet jarrell,tam and mingjie to watch movie
gonna watch death note.
the reason why i wanted to watch death note was because
during d class chalet
there was death note anime in zhenyu's psp.
and it's really nice.
so i got addicted to it a guess.ahas

well.let me post some pictures of yesterday's open sunday.

me and my best and fav gan di.jarrell.

the view.i took using jarrell's hp.after lunch

my two silly cg member.jarrell and ivan.dong gan chao ren pose.

2006-11-06T02:22:00.000+08:00

yes! see this phone.i'm gonna get it.
K750i. i'm coming your way.just 48 more days.
and you will be mine.
and i am no longer hunting for W810i lerhs.
woots

2006-11-04T02:27:00.000+08:00

hey people.

i'm back from my class chalet.

4 days 3 nights. didnt really sleep much.
dang!
my dearest phone arhs.
i cant msg anyone lerhs.
i can only recieve and call.
cant msg anyone.HOW SAD!

51 more days to change
phone , plan , number.
just cant wait for that day.

kinda miss chalet now.

bea - the crazy one.
: always lose to me in the naruto game.but play with her very fun.
cause she has tricks hidden in her sleves.

jess - my buddy.
: dont sad lerhs larhs.everything will be find.

kendrick - the one who was sleeping beside me and kachowing my piglet.
: sleeping beside him very safe cause his hands and legs never anyhow fly one
but.his engine very the loud.but overall.he is one super kind dude.and a good listener too.

ang zhen yu - terence 's lao po
: he sleep without snoring one.den he can blade kinda well.

terence - teh-kor
: his fart can kill every little thing.

see rong - sea hum
: he is a gamer la.can because of game dont sleep one.siao kia

teck meng - ah meng
: naruto pro.and he cannot drink cause he will turn red like a lobster.

ziquan - gentlement num 2
: ahas.very kind.just like kendrick. help us set up bbq pit.
follow us go buy thing.very good.

rong cheng - maria
: 4 days 3 night never sleep. cook and set up for us.
clean and wash for us.good maria.

wei jian - tai jian
: very good to talk to listen to all your problems.

woon yong - ???
: very queit.

ding fa - second mama
: he cook he wash he clean.and he bath very fast.

shu wen - guai lan kia
: his mouth cannot stop talking crap and rubbish.

ahas.this is it.i'm tired.blog tmr.

I WANT A NEW PHONE

2006-10-31T04:09:00.000+08:00

chalet-ing from
31 oct-3 nov 2006
4 days 3 nights

venue: paris ris (i dont know where)

cant find me.

got my number.
SMS ME!

dont have my number
TAG ME!

p/s: miss me ; bet you will.
you will miss me like shyt!

administration manager
♥ BERYL

2006-10-30T17:36:00.000+08:00

please wait for the MV to load yarhs.
p/s: to view the chinese words
please go to
"view"
"encoding"
and select
"unicode(UTF-8)"

this song is very nice.the song lyrics is right below
with chinese han yu ping yin with it.ahas.hope it is correct.

輕輕关上我的眼睛
qing qing guan shang wo de yan jing
整個心裏都是袮
zheng ge xin lu dou shi ni
希望真愛能被袮感應
xi wang zhen ai neng bei ni gan ying
袮是月亮我是星星
ni shi yue liang wo shi xing xing
陪袮一起數心情
pei ni yi qi shu xin qing
見證我倆愛情的降臨
jian zheng wo liang ai qing de jiang lin
在我心裏
zai wo xin li
最愛的人就是袮
zui ai de ren jiu shi ni
裝上翅膀我要飛嚮袮
zhuang shang chi bang wo yao fei xiang ni
愛的印記
ai de yin ji
如此堅定
ru ci jian ding
這是我們的甜蜜約定
zhe shi wo men de tian mi yue ding
輕輕呼吸袮的呼吸
qing qing hu xi ni de hu xi
心裏滿滿都是袮
xin li man man dou shi ni
袮是陽光水還有空氣
ni shi yang guang shui hai you kong qi
茫茫人海確定是袮
mang mang ren hai que ding shi ni
倖福閃爍的眼睛
xing fu shan shuo de yan jing
月亮代錶我的一顆心
yue liang dai biao wo de yi ke xin
在我心裏
zai wo xin li
最愛的人就是袮
zui ai de ren jiu shi ni
裝上翅膀我要飛嚮袮
zhuang shang chi bang wo yao fei xiang ni
愛的印記
ai de yin ji
如此堅定
ru ci jian ding
這是我們的甜蜜約定
zhe shi wo men de tian mi yue ding
在我心裏
zai wo xin li
最愛的人就是袮
zui ai de ren jiu shi ni
裝上翅膀我要飛嚮袮
zhuang shang chi bang wo yao fei xiang ni
愛的印記
ai de yin ji
如此堅定
ru ci jian ding
這是我們的甜蜜約定
zhe shi wo men de tian mi yue ding
Baby U will know our love so sweet

2006-10-30T01:49:00.000+08:00

click for picture to enlarge.

2006-10-27T03:14:00.000+08:00

I CHANGE MY BLOG LAYOUT.
(not really la)

well.thanks people for being concern about me.

ahBAO
heyy! thanks for being there for me yarhs.
always remember kongbahbao rocks.
yes.and i will talk to you alrights.LOVE YARH!
elynn
pang yu ling.i know you like to crap alot.
but thanks for making me laugh when i needed a laugh
from someone.
nat
natnatnatnatnat!aiya.i really miss you alot luh.
aiyo.really arhs.during the girls outing we must talk more
luh.if not will be more wasted.looking forward to it.hehes.
and i love talking to you.
hannah
xiaobenzhu.hehs.thanks for being my regular tagger.
and i am also your regular blog reader too.but i dont tag nia.
kekes~ well.your holidays are here lerhs.going up to sec 2 lerhs.
must jia you alrights.love ya.
winnie
winnie d pooh.ahas.well.i known you for dunno hw many months lerhs
but hor.i just wanna tell you that you've been a wonderful sister i have.
i also wanna tell you that i love you too okayy.stay strong with the Lord and keith
okayy.if keith bullys you.tell me.hehes.^^
elliot
hey there.ahas.yeaps.i enjoy talking to you on msn okay.
i know you will be reading my blog.so i wanna thank you
for your encouragments when i was rather sad and feeling weird.
thank you.
daniel.l
hey i know you will also be reading this.thanks for tagging
and showing care for me.yeaps.i have your email and number.
^^.thanks many.thou i not really close to you.but i known you
for a very long time.from the time i enter EYC.
weisheng
hey gamer/zhun kia . ahas.well.it's nice knowing you.and thanks for
your care and concern too.thou i also not close to you.but really hor.
you are a super funny guy.thanks alot too yarhs.zhun kia.
nicholas
my dazhuu.ahas.well.all the best for your O lvls too yarhs.
hope to meet up some day den i also can pass you your
birthday present.thanks for your encouraging words too.

2006-10-25T00:21:00.000+08:00

SPELL YOUR FULL NAME AND SEE WHAT EACH LETTER STANDS FOR!

A- Damn good kisser.
B- Good all around person.
C- You're wild & crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E- You have a nice ass.
F- People totally adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You get hyper easily.
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You like to try new things.
L- You live to have fun.
M- Success comes easily to you.
N- You are absolutely beautiful.
O- You're an awesome person.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Sexy!
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.
Z- You're a little too hard to find.

B- Good all around person.
E- You have a nice ass.
R- Sexy!
Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.
L- You live to have fun.

L- You live to have fun.
I- You get hyper easily.
M- Success comes easily to you.

S- Easy to fall in love with.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
A- Damn good kisser.
N- You are absolutely beautiful.

S- Easy to fall in love with.
A- Damn good kisser.
N- You are absolutely beautiful.

2006-10-24T01:34:00.000+08:00

All because of love

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart just to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

We are the reason
that He gave His life
We are the reason
that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all that He could give
To show us the reason to live

He is the reason to live.

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith I will walk on Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in You

Your love that never ends

2006-10-22T00:11:00.000+08:00

WARNING!!
do ~~not~~ read esp people who like to look down and take me like a piece of shit

just a sudden feeling.
i dont feel like going to church
dont ask me why
cause i dont know.
nobody understands me well.
i am darn tired of all this crap that is going around me.
i am working.yes i am working.
and i'm working n a bar.yes a bar.
if there any problem.
if anyone could help me find a job which could hold
7 bucks per hour.i would willing quit and go to that job okayy.
no body understand.
i just need someone to talk to.and that's it.
but that bloody person that i was surpose to talk to was giving me
a hell of my time.making me
waste my bloody time on nothing can.
shit you la.
dont always say sorry to me la unless you really mean it
time and time again.
you are always saying sorry
do you know i have my limits.
you dont right.
so i'm telling you now.
all the tears that i wanna shed with you are all nicely kept.
but you choose not to care about me.
you yourself know how long i waited for the time right
but NO~
please stop hurting me.
it is enough.
i had enough.
E-N-O-U-G-H!
i am crying in my bloody asswipe sleep
every day
every night / morning (to you)
and what do i get from you.
just a bloody shit of sorry.
SHIT YOU can.!
it is already off the limits.WAY OFF!
dont come looking at me like a little poor girl can.
freak off okay.
i haven get pissed off in a super duper long while.
and yet you are starting a bloody fire on my head.

2006-10-20T01:27:00.000+08:00

well.its friday already.
gotta work norhs.working at 6 tmr tgt with jessie.
well, not everyone accept me where i am working norhs.
but i just want to tell your that i'm really happy working there.
i work because i can kill my time and i can earn money and for fun too.
to gain exprience too.

2006-10-19T02:50:00.000+08:00

irwin called and said that i need not work on thursday.
for dont know what reason.i guess working is kinda fun.
but tiring as well.

2006-10-18T10:47:00.000+08:00

its off day for me. yayness

went for graduation thingy today.
ahas.rather sad luh.
leaving school le.ahas.
so fast 4 years passed.

i miss 4T1 <33

2006-10-17T12:48:00.000+08:00

i didnt know that working is so tiring.
last night / today morning i reach home around at 4-5 around there la.
but it's really fun la.hmm.i am down on duty on sunday but i have to work til closing.
rather tiring again.cause after church lehs.dont think can stay back for games.
shucks.
well.now i'm shack , tired and broken.
but.i am super tired.trying to hold on to my freak emo mood.
i feel like i'm breaking down soon la.
today i doing closing again.ahas.but i start at 6.
hope bea and jess can go.dont wanna be alone.

2006-10-15T23:09:00.000+08:00

when i say i need to talk to you.it really means i need to talk to you.
cant you just keep to the promise you made.just this once.
maybe you dont understand me.

i tried to build up this sister-ship so hard.it is hard on me okayy.
i have so many troubles in my heart i wanna tell you before i start work.
i justfeel like crying now la.cant you just understand.
i am d youngest at home.and my siblings dont really dote on me
please help me.i need to talk.

2006-10-14T01:58:00.000+08:00

WAYS TO END ONE's LIFE

The list:
1. Jump down from a super tall building (so that one will die before he/she reach the ground)
2. Swallow & gobble down a bottle of insomnia pills (not for me.! cause i dont take pills)
3. Cutting wrist (only dumb people do that)
4. Taking in carbon monoxide (by sleeping in an 'on-engine' car)
5. Sudden dash to middle of the road,hoping some vehicle to knock onto that person (crazy.! cause there are traffic lights.)
6. Jump into the MRT track when train arriving (dumb.! cause there are camera around)
7. By drowning him/herself ( very dumb cause it's hard if you know how to swim)
8. Stab him/herself in the stomach with a knife ( it's pain cause it's your flesh)

I found out that no. 4 may be the best way. Not much suffering. LOL!This is how negative one may think when they are really depressed. When the most important thing in their life just shattered into bits & pieces.

2006-10-13T00:46:00.000+08:00

hey hey peoples ((:

okayy.my first week of holiday is gonna be gone soon.
i was suppose to go to school during this week to get my report slip for my prelim papers.
but i guess.hehes
but never mind.will be getting it during grad lunch too yarhs.and the best thing is
i dont have to hand it up again.ahas
well.that's one thing good for me.*gins*

hmm.i think i have already clean the kitchen up lerhs.
my granny is like feeding me like i've not been eating in ages.
feeding me with everything that is in the kitchen.
okay.i might wanna gain weight during this holiday.
but not that fast.ahas

well.went watching world trade center with manda ; quah ; claire and quan.
hmm.just dont understand why people would say that it suck la.
but to me it's nice.made me shed alot of tears.ahas.
and i think that it meant alot to me.
just put yourself in the people who had went into anyone of the building shoe's
they love their family and life so much that they hang in there went they were trap
under those big block of stones.and youngester's now a days wanna die just because of a
broken r/s by what.sliting their wrist , jumping off block by block.what is this?
please think about the things that will happen after that?
what about your parents?just think about the everything they did for you.
stupid people doing stupid things.
just think about those people who are dying of some illness.like cancer or so whatever.
they wanna live longer.so why not just give them your life.
since you wanna die right now ehs.i would think that you are one kind of dumbass.
cant you people treasure your life well.

and othr country that are having war.why are they having war cause they wanna protect their country and they would wish that they would at least stay alove and go back to their warm and loving home again and rather to die.why cant people treasure life well.

i just got nothing to say.
give me your life if you dont want cause i'm willing to change for a pair of healthy lungs.
ok.to many people who didnt know.i got a history of asthma.
it's been living in me for 16 whole year.and it would follow me for my entire life.
and i would die any now and then cause asthma comes and goes as and when it want to.
that's why i have d inhaler.
please do treasure your life.^^

2006-10-09T17:09:00.000+08:00

yeaps.first day of my holiday.
happy yet sad.

well mummy bought me another box of
ferrero rocher.
super happy.and i guess i will be wiping out all the food at home
since it's holiday.i guess i will putting on weight.yeahs my dream.
ahas.but i must grow taller too.
but maybe not la.grow too tall later nobody want how.
dont wanna grow taller le.but must gain weight.and lose weight.
ahas.kinda "sha" which means silly.
well.

long term holiday isnt that good too.
kinda miss school.but what can i say.
time flies.and it flies real fast.

miss my classmates.
miss the place i sit.
miss the table i draw on.
miss the teachers who came into class almost everyday.
miss the canteen aunty(s)
miss the classes beside my class.
(i bet that they are feeling weird w/o my class making noise)
miss the four years with my classmates.
miss the laughter
miss the tears
miss the small little things that we do.
miss the faces we give to any teachers who treated any of us like shit.
i just miss my class.
and shoots to my tears that are about to flow down.

owell.this is part of life.
just like what people say.
secondary school life is the life where you can choose to find your true friends ;
and choose to meet the people you hate.

How to make a beryl

Ingredients:
1 part mercy
5 parts humour
3 parts energy

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add sadness to taste! Do not overindulge!

2006-10-07T22:15:00.000+08:00

exams are over and no more school.

YAFOOOO!

2006-09-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

okayy before i lose touch in blogging for the next 14 days.i dont want my readers to not miss this entry.ahas.we had a sfc outing on saturday.and whad can i say . it is good.we had bowling and lazer quest.so.yeaps.i had lots of fun there.okay i am a lousy bowler.that's it.ahas.

it's been okayy for me luh.not really mugging that hard. dx . yeaps.anyway.i gt back 3 prelims results.and okay luh.happy with the results.ahas

english - 83% - A1
chinese - 56% -C5
office admin - 79% - A1

yeaps.happy for me.you should be.my mum award me with a box of chocolate.hehes.and more chocolates.okayy luh.this is the first time i'm having like this kind of good results luh.woots.i just hope that i will have this results for N levels man.

look who we found here.it's eric.

and yarhs.we are his number one fans.ahas.

with his number one post.ahas.

boy , it's rude not to talk to us when we found out that you were the banner.shucks.

2006-09-23T23:03:00.000+08:00

In life, you will always have some people
who will work hard to bring you & your name down.
This is undercover.
Because of your smart behaviour ,
you will be hated by some people too.
this is because that they are jealous.
Because one that have done better.

So if you have done nothing,

What are you afraid of?

2006-09-17T00:14:00.000+08:00

well just came back from ivan's bbq.
it was totally fun can?!

ate chicken wings which were brought by manda , marshmellow by eunice , stingray by justin , somesort of 'satay' called kebab by elliot , drinks by shunli. yeaps.all nice food.^^
i got pengkang chicken wing but only eat a couple.but it was nice

and of cause how can i forget the birthday cake.
ahas.
well.enjoyed myself.

The world is painted
With a myraid of colours
By His loving hand
Splashes of fiery red
Dabs of cool,calm green
And layers of bright sunny yellow

What would the world be like?
If it was not painted thus?

There would neither be black nor white
Nor shades of gray
To bring vision to our eyes
There would no be nothingness
Emptiness,void
If not for that painter,creator

2006-09-15T12:07:00.001+08:00

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
ah huh that's right

I took your words
And I believed
In everything you said to me
yeah huh that's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong
I know better
Coz you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
oh no no no

I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'Fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
But they knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who Knew

Yeah yeah

I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong and
That last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep you memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darlin' who knew

My darlin' my darlin' who knew
My darlin' I miss you
My darlin' who knew
Who knew

2006-09-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

how blur can i be to tie my answer sheet together with my cover page together with my question paper together.and there the laughter began.shucks!
while mr shahril says tie the answer sheet together with the cover page and not with the question paper.
okayy i am dumb. ha~

2006-09-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are quite expressive and thoughtful. You see the world in a way that others are blind to.
You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it.
You believe that people see you as a bit small and insignificant. People pay more attention to you than you think.
Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now.
For you, falling in love has never been easy. You can only fall for someone who is very patient and persistent.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

2006-09-13T22:23:00.000+08:00

Pick the month you were born:

January---- I kicked
February---- I loved
March---- I smoked
April---- I dry humped
May---- I choked on
June---- I murdered
July---- I did the Marcarena with
August---- I had lunch with
September---- I danced with
October---- I sang to
November---- I yelled at
December---- I ran over

Pick the day ( number ) you were born on:

1------- a birdbath
2------- a monster
3------- a phone
4------- a fort
5------- a Mexican
6------- a gangster
7------- my cell phone
8------- my dog
9------- my best friends boyfriend
10------- my neighbour
11------- my science teacher
12------- a banana
13------- a fireman
14------- a stuffed animal
15------- a goal
16------- a pickle
17------- your mom
18------- a spoon
19------- myself
20------- a baseball bat
21------- a ninja
22------- a model
23------- a noodle
24------- a squirrel
25------- a football player
26------- my sister
27------- my brother
28------- an ipod
29------- a permanent marker
30------- a llama
31------- a homeless guy

Pick the colour of shirt you are wearing:

White------ because I'm cool like that.
Black------ because that's how I roll
Pink------ because I'm NOT a homosexual
Red------ because the voices told me to do so
Blue------ because I'm sexy and I do what I want
Green------ because I hate myself.
Purple------ becauser I'm cool.
Gray------ because I was drunk.
Yellow------ because someone offered me 1,000,000 dollars.
Orange------ because I hate my family.
Brown------ because I was high.
Other------ because I'm a ninja.
None------ because I can't control myself.

I LOVED A GOAL BECAUSE I'M COOL LIKE THAT.

2006-09-13T17:34:00.000+08:00

"Good afternoon, everyone.
We're flying at 26,000 feet, moving up to 30,000 feet,
and we've got clear skies all the way to Las Vegas.
Right now, we're bringing you some in-flight entertainment.
One of our first class passengers would like to sing you a song
inspired by one of our coach passengers.
And since we let our first class passengers do,
pretty much whatever they want,
here he is:" - Billy Idol
I wanna make you smile,
whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
Oh, all i wanna do, is grow old with you.
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches,
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
Oh, it could be so nice, growin' old with you.
I'll miss you, kiss you,
Give you my coat when you are cold,
need you, feed you.
I'll even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink,
put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man who grows old with you.
I wanna grow old with you...

2006-09-12T22:56:00.000+08:00

okayy. yesterday i was so sian that i was playing and doing some things la.

i play games from a webby and it was fun luh.
(today's post will be photo blog)

this is the typing test score.ahas.nice ehs x)

this my reflect test.i just love the score.whahas

my check box score.nice huh.

okayy luh.it's time for me to sleep liaos.^^

2006-09-10T21:04:00.000+08:00

2006-09-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

Got Tagged By Dearest Clara (:

7 weird facts about me*
1. i cry for anything.
2. i get very high .
3. i support paul twohill .
4. i am very random.
5. i dont know what i weird fact i have.
6. i cant stop eating once i start to eat.
7. i am me.

7 habits about me*
1. i bite my finger nails when i am hungry.
2. i get hungry very easy.
3. i love outdoor activity.
4. i love to run or eat when i am depressed.
5. i sleep alot.
6. i love to take pictures of small little things.
7. game addictor.

7 things about me ;
1. buay hiao bye.
2. i treasure friendship cause it means alot to me.
3. super soft-hearted.
4. get hurt very easy.
5. cry very easy. (but i'm trying to learn not to cry so much)
6. get very "xin luan" easily.
7. Christian.

7 people to do this ;
1. isabelle. (i told you i am gonna sabo you)
2. dinah.
3. hannah.(yeaps it's you again)
4. YIING.(yes i sabo-ed you back)
5. lianli.
6. i dont know who la.
7. if you are bored do it okiies.

2006-09-08T21:19:00.000+08:00

hellos people.

ahas.yesterday cg outing was fun luh.we did many many things luh

we played
pool ;
arcade ;
fly kite ;
had a teary lunch and a bang bang dinner ahas.
how fun ehs.

and i just loveee my cg to bits.

and we had like almost the whole cg for the outing.

wooties~^^

2006-09-08T12:39:00.000+08:00

i'm going to floorball ((x

and yesterday's cg outing was GREAT !
woosh.blog 'em later.

listening to the sound of your heartbeat. <33

2006-09-05T17:29:00.000+08:00

ok.i know i should be studying instead of blogging but i have to blog this okayy.

this guy is only 44 and married with two kids.he is one guy that i like alot because of his braveness.and he is my all time favourite tv star.

Steve Irwin

I give you my respect.

2006-09-04T10:20:00.000+08:00

mugging.

will be MIA from blogging til my exams are over.mean while dont miss me much.

2006-08-25T22:02:00.001+08:00

bloody ass ying.always make me do all these.kena sai.

here i go.

1. full name: Beryl Lim Shan San
2. name backwards: naS nahS miL lyreB
3. were you named after someone: i dunno
4. meaning of name: its Greek.meaning precious stone.
5. nickname: princess piglet;xiaozhu;ICEMILO;dabenzhu;xiaoclumsy;freako queen;siao ehs LOTS MORE LUH.
6. screen name: dunno.
7. D.O.B: 15 Feb 1990
8. place of birth: NUH.
9. nationality: Singaporean.
10. current location: in my room watch teebee.
11. star sign: aquarius.
12. religion: christianity.
13. height: 175 liddat bahs.
14. weight: 50.
15. shoe size: 8 or 9 i suppose.
16. hair colour: black.
17. eye colour: dunno.
18. who do you look like: look like daddy.but mr liang says i look like tanya chua ^^
19. innie or outtie: dunno
20. leftie or rightie: rightie.
21. gay, straight, bi or others: STRAIGHT
22. best friends: many many
23. best friend you trust most: manda ; quah ; chng ; pris ; nat ; tam & cg
24. favourite pals: pals arhs.friends luh.
25. best friend of opposite sex: kendrick ; alvin OINK ; ziquan ; dun like to mix much with guys
26. best buddies: manda ; quah ; chng ; pris ; jess ; bea; tam
27. boyfriend or girlfriend: ehs.dun have
28. crush: have.
29. parents: 1 dad 1 mom enough
30. worst enemy: satan.
31. favourite online guy: laopa [john];keith;kendrick;elliot;ziquan;mervin;ayrton[cousin].
32. favourite online girl: lene;chng;manda;val;belle;hannah;ximin.
33. craziest friend: beatrice.
34. advice friend: beatrice ; chng.
35. loudest friend: beatrice ; kendrick.
36. person you cry with: manda ; quah ; nat ; tam ; chng.
37. any sisters: two old ones!
38. any brothers: one old one.
39. any pets: a dog. used to
40. any disease: yes.asthma
41. pagers: use to.
42. personal phone line: underage.
43. cell phone: nokia 3200 lousy phone
44.memories washed or kept: dunno
45. pool or hot tub: both i think.
46. a car: want one.but to young to drive one
47. your personality: hyper ; crazy ; sporty .
48. driving: underage luh ..
49. room: messy.
50. whats missing: dinner.
51. school: bloody evergreen secondary.
52. bed colour: colourful.
53. relationship with parents: ok.
54. believe in yourself: sometimes.
55. believe in love at first sight: no
56. good listener: duno gotta ask my friends.
57. get along well with parents: yarh.
58. save email conversations: no.
59. pray: yea.
60. believe in reincarnation: no.
61. make fun of people: sometime.
62. like to talk on the phone: no.
63. want to get married: see first.but of cause luh.
64. like to drive: afraid dat i might get lost.
65. motion sickness: yes.
66. eat stem of broccoli: yea.
67. eat chicken with fork: no.
68. dream in colour: see luh.
69. type with your fingers on home role: i obly use 5 fingers to type lazy la.
70. sleep with stuff animals: previously.not anymore.
71. next to you: bed ; fan .
72. on the walls of your room: glow in d dark stars.
73. on your mousepad: i dun use mousepad.
74. dream car: dunno.must be comfortable
75. dream date: i must be comfortable with him.
76. dream honeymoon spot: korea ; hawaii
77. dream husband or wife: someone who truely loves me as much as i love him.
78. bedtime: donno when i feel tired
79. under your bed: basketball.
80. single most important question: dun understand
81. bad time of a day: i donno lehs.
82. your worst fear: abandoned.
83. the weather is: i oso not weather man.
84. time: 11.01pm
85. date: 25th august 2006
86. best trick did on someone: dunno lehs.
87. theme song: dunno.
88. hardest thing about growing up: stress?.
89. funniest experience: dunno.
90. scariest experience: cannot sleep.
91. silliest thing you have ever said: lucky lucky stupid black dog
92. scariest thing while you are with your friends: many
93. worst feeling: forgot.
94. saddest feeling : when i get darn hurt
95. best feeling in the world: when u spend razy time with your pals
96. AND NOW THE SABOTAGING BEGINS!!! CHOOSE EIGHT TO DO THE QUIZ!!!pple in the LIST...

1.HANNAH.
2.KEITH/WINNIE.
3.LIANLI.
4.ISABELLE.
5.HASLINDA.
6.XIMIN.
7.DINAH.
8.dunno.

2006-08-25T17:56:00.000+08:00

Now here's the song quiz from ying's blog(:

1. Put your music player/iTunes/whatever on shuffle.

2. Press forward for each question.

3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.

How am I feeling today?
Time Machine/The Click Five
(i actually need more time for work ahas.rather stress.)

Will I get far in life?
Perfect/Simple Plan
(as if)

How do my friends see me?
Picture Of You/Boyzone
(What?a picture of me.)

Will I get married?
Welcome To My Life/Simple Plan
(Aw,man,don't be like this.)

What is my best friend's theme song?
Desire/U2
(haha!)

What is the story of my life?
I've Got You / McFly
(Apparently I shall spend my entire life looking for YOU!)

What is/was high school like?
Miss Independent/ Kelly Clarkson
( Really mehs.)

How can I get ahead in life?
Unwell / Matchbox Twenty
(Huh! unwell arhs.den i dont wanna live liaos)

What is the best thing about me?
Ultraviolet/ McFly
(Nooo!!!Don't be like this!!!How can i be ultraviolet)

What is today going to be like?
Nobody's Home/ Avril Lavigne
(Rather correct luh.i am home alone now.)

What is in store for this weekend?
Speed Of Sound/ Cold Play
(Does it mean music.ahas.?)

What song describes my parent(s)?
Build Me A Buttercup/ Busted & McFly
(I think this song suit my dad luh.cause my mom is his buttercup.><)

To describe my grandparents?
She Moves In Mysterious Way/ U2
(Gee.Gee.)

How is my life going?
You Dont Mean Anything/ Simple Plan
( Ahas . yeaps.You dont mean anything to me.^^)

How does the world see me?
Back Home/ Yellowcard
(okayyy.I am back home?!)

Will I have a happy life?
If I Aint Got You / Alicia Keys
(I think it means If i aint got you yarhs. =.=)

What do my friends really think of me?
Why / Avril Lavigne
(Why? Why me right friends??)

Do people secretly lust after me?
The Chronicles of Life and Death/ Good Charlotte
(Dont understand! cause we all end up the same?)

How can I make myself happy?
To Be With You/ Mr. Big
(Yes yes yes!!!To be with you.)

What should I do with my life?
Please Please/ McFly
(PLEASE PLEASE LET ME PASS MY EXAM! ahas.)

Will I ever have children?
Somewhere Over The Rainbow/ Faith Hill
(The question I found so funny.Well,ying, What does this means?.)

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I keep your photograph
I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high
And steal your pain away

2006-08-24T18:15:00.000+08:00

this post is esp for both manda and quah.

hey girls.my dearest kong and bao. i just wanna tell you that everytime i spend my day with YOU i enjoy it alot alot ok.as i said it before you are not alone cause you have me.and when your tired i will walk with you.if you dont have the strength to walk i would piggy-back you on my back no matter what i would always be there for you.and nothing can replace the things we do and the memories that we have.i just love the times we shared about the things we do and the problem we face.remember we are together as one kong bah bao. without the kong there will not be any kong bah bao.without the bah it would be just as plain as white bread.without the bao the bah would be cold and no warm would be given to it.so we are together just like the kongbahbao.nothing can break us apart.memories are memories.nothing can wash it away from me.

If you ever needs me I'll be there (:

2006-08-24T13:28:00.000+08:00

hellos people (:

ahas.this week very fun larhs.any way to quah and idris.happy birthday okiies.thou this is late la.but still happy birthday ok.^^

well the week has been rather good and sad.i oso dunno why la.
got my english results for prelim and guess what i passed with super flying colours.
i wanna have five colours in my hair :p
den today mr shahril showed us our overall marks and percentage.ahas.i top in class.
super happy cans?! cause i never expected to be top cause both jess and eman also very good.
i think i have to improve more yarhs.i guess there's more room for improvement yarhs. ^^
now i just hope that both my chinese and maths would pass lorhs.even thou i haven take my maths paper yet.but i will give in all my best into each and every paper esp chinese and maths ahas.everyone knows that these 2 subject of mine is very weak luh.so
BERYL YOU MUST PUT IN YOU 199.9 % IN THESE SUBJECT.
anyway we had our sitting arrangements changed.we changed it to our sec 1 sitting arrangements.ahas.now i sitting in d front row and sitting tgt with my buddies.jess and bea luh.

ahas.dunno why la.keep running to d toilet.tummy pain la.almost for a week lerhs.tired of running to the toilet.diaos =.=

during this week i went for quah's birthday dinner at pizza hut.ahas.kind like it.^^
during the meal amanda n me went to find quah's present luh.i like her present.ahas.
yarhs luh.*fast forward* after dinner we ( quah ; manda n me) went to take neo.ahas.yarhs.i love spending time with them esp sharing luh. *loves loves* after neo manda wanted to pass something to sam luh.den quah n me pei her go luh.on d way to church luh. d 3 of us crazy d luh.take pic here and there.ahas.
*QUAH N MANDA FASTER SEND ME PICTURES!!*
hehes.den we had small chat luh.den quah and me did something that i think we never ever would wanna do it again luh.i dont wanna type it out cause for some reasons okiie!
yarhs.den had a small talk with sam n quah.and the song that sam played made me think about all the things that i did with many people.thefun the joy and all the smiles on our face.den my tap turn on.so tears flow from my eyes to my nose to my hand and it drip.wha like very drama hor.but it is real luh.got alot of flashback luh. like the time when i first met manda in 913 bus.and i got to know her for the first time.then slowly got close den now that we are so close i do not wanna lose her as my friend.same goes to quah.the two of them are my girls now.and i do not want anything to happen to them.even thou i am different school from them i still wanna let them know i care alot. the time we spend tgt is the kind of memories that i dont wanna let go and let it be washed away by anything cause it cant be replaced by anyone or anything.

i love them so much that i could let go of every single thing just for them.and i am one kind of person that tresure friendship alot.and it mean alot to me.and that means i get hurt easily.

Be contented when you have got all you want

2006-08-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

oh hai yai yai oh hey :P

wha long time no blog le hor. prelims over for now larhs. left with maths paper 1 &2 den my eoa & cpa theory paper.yeaps.well.school has been kinda ok with me larhs.many things to do for now.

anyway was watching tv with my mom someother time and there was project superstar.and she asked me if i wanted to join.of cause NO WAY! c'mon la.cannot make it one.i think i will make all the people around me die and faint luh.so i told my mom la.that even if i die i would never sing infront of people just for fame la.i would just sit beside my mom and dad just to sing their favourit song just for them.

erm.ok la.whad do ireally think about my prelim papers arhs?
well i think i screwed up my english and chinese paper.hope that i wont fail that bad ok.
erm.i dunno why but i just wanna type this out.
I MISS WCC SO MUCH LARHS!

that time when i was reading mervin's blog right.he posted about memories luh.
and for a while i thought memories.hmm.very good word for me to use for this post.
cause as many people know that memories cant be washed away.but for me.i think that different kind of memories would be washed away. but u would most likely wash away memories that are upsetting to u or even unpleasent to you right.why is it like this.?
aiya maybe i dont know well la huh.hmmm.

never mind i blog bout my week lorhs.ahas.well i think i found 2 person that i can really continue this walk with. caryn quah & amanda tan. i dunno how to thank them when i was really down and when things were falling apart for me.they are the ones that really stood beside me la.apart from my cg . hmm talking about cg ehs.

cg has been ok for me.i am getting used to this comfortable cg i'm in right now.and
JAMIE RECIEVE CHRIST LIAOS! welcome to this family Jamie. yeahs.i will be accountable to her.yeahs!cg has been fun.ahas.LTP over liaos.so next week back to bs yeahs.i miss BS alot larhs.i oso dunno why.i think Bs really make me understand more things and makes me run on the track with everyothers who is on the track with me.hmm.

and to end my entry i would like to show u all fellow readers.

BATMANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
MICHAELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE<333333333333

2006-08-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

pipipopoyiorhyiorh (:

ahas.sch was crazy today.ahas.had eoa pract today lorhs.hmm.dun think will pass that well thou i did everything and printed out all 5 coursework.but dont think will fail that much too.

after pract exam headed back to class luh.den guess what.we started a paper-ball fight.all aim downing.ahas.den he super luh.just move here and there den nvr kena any hits from the class luh.den i'm like laughing my ass out luh.this is one kind of random things we do in class luh.

after that had maths i think.*fast forward*recess.

during recess i wento the library to borrow books luh.wo shi good girl marhs.den hor zizah ; siti ; jess ; bea and me hor got this stupid thing luh.when ever we reaching class le luh den the last one to reach class is pig marhs.ahas.den bea hor.for 2 times hor is pig lorhs.she so slow luh.ahas.i think because i pushed her aside bahs.ahas.but i oso dun wan to be pig thou i'm already a pig.ahas.den we made up 3 kind of animal to form one of our classmate luh.she has a nose like a pig ; body like an elephane and she smell like a raw fish.ahas.super funny lorhs.

after recess back to class we had this stupid paper ball thingy again.den dunno which ass-clown hit me luh.den meng say throw towards the fan den see kena who lor.ahas den shu wen suay lor.the paper ball hit his head so hard.den he gong gong.lols.not my fault hor.is the fan's fault. hehes.den dunno which teacher came and give the class warning luh.so funny larhs.

den during EOA suppost to do work.den jess ; bea and me hor.talk all the way luh.den make fun of terence.ahas.he is now called teh-kor. lols.if u dunno what is teh-kor.it means underwear.lols.den we laugh our ass out luh.den make fun of him luh.super funny lor.today dunno why keep laughing so much luh.after that we just kept talking luh.den never really complete section A of the paper luh.ahas.dunno luh.

after sch went to chit chat with bea n jess under dunno which block luh.den we talk until super fun lor.den i beside me n bea is an empty sit. den my leg very tired so i left my legs and for once bea tot that my shoe was a CAT! ahas.mad-ness luh. o btw hor.i bought this sweet for 10 cent today and it is nice ok.this peppermint thingy.very nice luh.

tomorrow is chinese listening and written paper.arghs! i dun like chinese ok.ahas.hope that listening will helpme pull up my grades luh.ahas.thou i dunno how to read.never mind anyhow tickum tickum oso can hor.hehes.^^

4 years of being tgt ; thru thick ; thin ; rough ; smooth.4T1 brings one of the best memories in my life.

2006-08-15T15:21:00.000+08:00

tears rolled down my cheeks as I watched a father's love for his son.
A father's love so relentlessly strong and powerful

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WjPrL3n63yg

2006-08-14T16:12:00.000+08:00

hellos :)

yesterday (:

cg was great okayys. plan for cg outing den we had a small so called sharing time la.
we share on what we need. XD
WE NEED ELYNN TO BE MORE LADY!
whahas.that is wad the cg need.
after cg had ltp marhs.it was ok larhs hor.
den played basketball for a while ok i know people wll be SCREAMING at me
cause my wrist haven recover marhs.
and blah blah blah.
yarhs den hor i tell u arhs
i think kinda hurt my wrist more when i was playing basketball.dun scold me pls
ahas.yarhs.den for dinner i spend time with mom at cwp.
we wento jack's place.it wasnt my idea.mommy wanted to eat d steak
so i pei her go.wha eat until so full larhs.den almost wanted to vomit all out.but heng nvr.
lols.i ate fire steak den escargo i think liddat spell bahs den ice cream and soup.yarhs
VERY FULL LARHS.den mommy tell me good news.
whahas.the nike bag i wanted hor.her client getting it for me at 40 bucks.
woots.and i am super duper uber happy can.

today :)

HAD PRELIM TODAY.
super diaos lo.the paper ok la.not so confident that can pass cause i thinbk i screwed my writting.den my wrist super pain larhs.den i write until so untidy and slow
T.T mommy where are u.
lols.den hor ok la.cannot go home right after exam so we had 1hour of recess.whakaks.
good hor.lols.but den hor.super sian lo.haiyo.
nvm la.tomorrow paper 2 hope can do well lorhs.
open eyes big big and
BETTER READ THE QNS HAO LAI ARHS!
super diaos hor.ahas. ok la

i wanto study lerhs.

i hate exams. and CG RAWKS